recording

2025.04.01

Hello humans~ It's been... 6 months than I don't update here. Main reason would be university but at the same time I'm so lazy ><' I know I should be practicing more webdev but there's a lot in my mind that makes me not focus on many things. Like I thought a lot about creating content, perhaps as video, about arts and crafts, and even some cozy minecraft gameplay but I didn't get to do it consistently? I dont know if that's a problem i have developed since high school, to not finish projects or even start some project, and when i finally do it i dont do it for long... In the end, everything i do seems half ass. Even speaking about uni, 'cause most of the times I feel like I lack of coding projects and anything that I could show to people so they know what i'm doing (and maybe get me a job? :p) I lack consistency (out of this context, even my mom told me that) What should I do to improve? T_T I definitely don't want to think like that, but lately there's a thought in my head if I'm doing the right thing or if I will be able to succeed (profissionally speaking)... Anyway,,, The topic I've been researching and thinking a lot about lately is 'dumbphone' or decentralizing smartphone. I like to see what people post on r/dumbphones, mainly their EDC(Everyday Carry). For the past few months my screen time (at least smartphone wise) has decreased a lot, I would still like to decrease it more but spending around 2 hours per day seems like something good. As apps like instagram are time-limited, I noticed that i started to doomscroll on youtube, even when i'm using my pc, so I've been trying to actively stop scrolling. There's a lot of interesting and useful content we find on the internet, but how much of it is really useful to us or even if we are in fact getting that information wired in our brains. As Luvstarkei said in his video, its like we feel we have to fill our brains by looking at things, at content, but when we stop doing that I guess we can feel more connected to ourselves and the world around us. We can think more clearly, even feel more clearly. A lot of times I would be scrolling while eating, and when i didnt do that i would feel impatient. Thats horrible. Something that I only recently did was block all apps on my phone when its 9PM so its impossible for me to scroll before sleeping AND I've been putting my phone far from my bed lol how much we get addicted to a small screen.. I think the idea of being a tech student while doing this movement to decrease excessive technologies in my life is cool. I do want as a professional to know, research, study, get involved in technology, but as a person I want to distance myself from it most of the time. Maybe not distancing from the technology but having more autonomy? more intentionality? What I find difficult to change into a dumbphone is because all people here communicate through whatsapp, even voice calls are made through it and not on the normal phone application, which make it a lot hard to simply abandon that message app. But thats not something impossible, maybe I will end getting a dumbphone or dumbfying my phone.